Starting to feel better...

I am starting to feel better!!! I'm still tired but not so foggy!! If I get a good night sleep I can make it through the day without a nap!! That's progress!!!

Max is getting into everything!!! He's so curious and opens all the cupboards in the kitchen and loves to open the DVD player or eject the Wii games!!! It's tough to keep up!!!

Jason and I have been wondering if we're saying "NO" too much because it's not having much affect on him. I do understand that he's young but I'm concerned about his safety. I've read about 2 books on my message boards- 1 is 1,2,3 Magic and the other is Love and Logic. (You can open these links in a new tab to not lose this post-it's the website for each theory-lots of resources). I bought both books on half.com-love that site!!! Both are very interesting. I'm working through them. It seems silly to read a book to figure out how to take care of your child-but I love learning and seeing the different schools of thoughts on things. And I'm a bit nervous about hitting terrible two's when B is born. It exhausts me just thinking about it!!!

It's thursday-normally Jason is home but he had an education half day at the hospital. So our normal thursday is a little different. At least we have the office tonight!!!

Had my appt!!!

Let me start by saying everything is okay!!! (I had much anxiety about this)
Well- the sweet nurse couldn't find the heartbeat via doppler. Now I'm almost 15 weeks I thought for sure we'd hear it right away (well, I wasn't sure-I was honestly freaked out something was wrong-but if we were to hear it-it would be right away!!) Of course my stomach was rolling due to anxiety and the water I chugged so I could pee and she heard all my stomach sounds-just no heartbeat. So she said she'd get my OB and she'd find it really quick. (yeah, that didn't calm my nerves.)

Knock on the door-thinking it was my OB-nope, it's the nurse asking if I want an U/S. Heck yeah I do!!!!

So we move to the U/S room and she gets the computer all set up. I disrobe because the nurse and I assume it wil be vaginal. My doc comes in and gives me a hug (she knows my anxiety issues). I hadn't seen her yet this pregnancy so she was all chatty and sweet telling me she was sure everything was fine.

She did an abdominal U/S (she said if they couldn't see it we'd do vaginal) and low and behold my baby sweet little heart started quivering on the screen!!!! She turned the volume up so we could hear it and I laid there with tears in my eyes listening to that sweet heartbeat!!! She said baby was laying sideways making it difficult to hear. She was not at all concerned and everything looked great. So my next appt is 11/13 and it's my big U/S...holy crap it's going quick this time!!! We're not finding out the gender but Jason will still go to the appt with me. He hasn't seen this bean yet!!

In other news-Mr. Max got a haircut-you can see the pics here. He is just growing up so fast!! He's taken off eating table food!! It amazes me how well he's done. He's also into EVERYTHING!!! He's so curious (read: nosy!!!)-he's always playing with the remote, dvd player, cable box, curtains, vents, and pretty much everything he can get into!! Not sure why we buy the boy toys!!! And darn it if that smile doesn't get me every time we get his attention to pull him away from whatever he's getting into!!! He's so darn close to walking too-he does his "spiderman" move along the wall to get where he wants to go-sometimes he forgets and lets go for a half second before he falls to his rear!!

Big update...and prayer request

It's not a secret-we've definitely told lots of people- but I haven't officially blogged about it-
I'm pregnant!!!
Those two words can scare the daylight out of you!!! I've been sicker than a dog-which explains the lack of posts both on this blog and Max's. I also stopped doing couch 2 5K as soon as I found out-because somehow those 2 lines on an HPT suck all the energy out of you:).

I'm due April 11th. Baby will probably debut in March per my OB. Well, not my OB-my OB is on maternity leave, the other OB in the practice told me that. I was supposed to have an appointment yesterday (which happened to be my birthday) and it was canceled. For some reason this really depressed me- you see- I'd been praying that I wouldn't get bad news on my birthday and when my appointment was postponed-I naturally went down the road that something is wrong and that was God's way of letting me enjoy my birthday-I'll get the bad news next week.

Needless to say-it was tough to enjoy my birthday. Downright awful actually. I cried most of the day. I'm better now. I spent some time in prayer and reading over my journal from when I was pregnant with Max. Man do I have trust and worry issues. But I'm reminded that the God I serve is bigger than all my fears. I'm still waiting for that appointment next week in anxious anticipation to hear the heartbeat again-but I know it's all in God's hands. I will trust in Him.

I'm hoping to add some blogs soon to my blog roll. My friends Erin and Kara have been encouraged, no threatened by me that they need to start blogging. Erin had Baby Stella a few weeks ago and Kara will be giving birth to "kid" in November. That way we can all link each other and see their adorable kids too!!!

I've been wanting to post some new pics of Max both here and his site-but I'm waiting for my photographer to get me some with her watermark. Until then, I bootlegged this one off of facebook-I love it!!!
Won't he be a handsome big brother? And yeah, for those of you trying to do math-17-18 months apart. That's the age difference!!

Please keep us in your prayers. We've affectionately nicknamed this one B. As in Baby B.